i stumbled upon some time these days, LOL~ i love cheap puns~ for those that don't know i've sprained my knee again so i'm out for the softball season i think. i thought it would be nice to post something...

i'm listening to the song posted in my last post... "help me believe it's not the real me". Check out the video if you haven't already. fightclub and the song go pretty well. Sometimes i wonder about that and it's reflective of the Christian life. It goes back to "being real". What is real and what is fake when it comes to Christian transformation. Some people think doin' things that don't make them happy is fake. Why pretend to be friends with someone you don't like, that's just fake, right? but then is the real you that isn't friends or is the real you the side that wants to be friends? This is the part that ought to be reflected upon when thinking about what it means, the origin.

As Christians it's actually a pretty foundational and almost basics concept, i shared this with our softball team last week and here it rises up again. As fellow Christians we are family. Regardless of who you like or not we are who we are. To abandon your family is something that does happen but not something that should. Families in the OT went to war for family ever if they gained nothing for themselves.

Joshua 1:10-16

Gad, Reuben and Mannesseh fought so that others could find rest. Because of the Father we are all sons and daughters and therefore family. Let us never forget what our real identity is and never cease overcoming the lies of the devil.

sidenote: Is it even possible for Christians to use the name of God in vain? aren't we actually calling on him when we say, "oh God!"?

follow the white rabbit~

http://youtube.com/watch?v=kjNMBwykv2I

check that out~

another rare posts~

i was hoping somehow it would be "another raw post" meaning something deep and personal, but then "rare" ended up being the word there and it seems to be the truest since i don't know what i'm goin' to write and i do post pretty rarely now.

recap:
- i started working, Canadian Tire~ i'm like and office temp~ dad hooked me up, it's aight~
- hit my first homer yesterday in softball
- had a good time with shirley on a non-date date~ erm...
- struggling to keep my responsibilities together since i'm always strapped for time and energy.
- sent a kid to the hall in my sunday school class
- got pretty mad at my sister today
- best dota record: 19-1 with BS (and no i didn't kill leavers at the end of the game)

Iunno, my life is pretty glarg since working... most of my waking hours are consumed by work and i'm not sleeping that well.... i'm up at 6:30, out by 7 and home at about 6-7 depending. if i eat dinner at home then yay but then there is small group on wednesday nights, softball practice on thrusdays, weekend games + devos to write, 7up (gr 7-8 fellowship) on every other (but soon to be every?) friday night, sunday school prep i have to do and summer school to boot. so monday, and tuesday nights i have to do sunday school prep, summer school hw and softball devos~ lol~ talk about over commitment~ lol~ short sighted by me i guess... the grace of God will carry me... june 23 midterm...eeks~ final in the end of july... a month and half basically of this and then i'm good to go. i need only endure a bit...

I'm thinking about 2 instances with the chin family right now. Missy came over and couldn't find her phone. We looked in the house and then outside in the car. It occured to me to pray but i figured we'd find it without divine intervention. We couldn't. Back in the house to look, then out to the car again. This time i told missy, "i'm sorry i should have prayed earlier, i always find lost things when i pray". She was oddly skeptical because it doesn't work for her usually. "Go keep looking missy, i'll pray.... Done" "Oh, i found it"... i'm not kidding, right when i finished is right when she found it.

we went to pacific after lunch today. at the lunch place my sister said, "don't forget to pray to find a spot before you go" As dave and i circle the pmall parking lot he notices that his sister's car is already parked. We left before them and they parked before us!!! then i remembered, i forgot to pray, "sorry dave, i forgot to pray....*praying* ... *receives phone call* "have you found a spot yet? did you forget to pray??" "i just finished praying and found a spot, i'll see you in a bit". literally as i finished praying and received that call i had already found the spot. People will say God is not a vending machine but God also does answer prayers of faith. i'm not moving mountains, just cars.

"not i, but God" - when glory comes your way do you take it or redirected to God?
missy "thanks for helping me find my phone"
me "no problem, thank God"

"and 'Even if' faith" -even if God doesn't do some big "wow" moment will your faith stand?
my entire love life: even if i never get together with shirley despite it all i have never stopped being a good steward of myself. i agreed to serve his people, for his glory, because of love even though i didn't feel the love. that is my "even if" faith

bloodseeker

i felt like i should write something... i don't know what there is to write though... i guess this is how the process works, sometimes there is nothing i want to say... bloodseeker... dang he's too nice. it's coolz how this character can pretty much own by himself from level 11 - 25. Life is hard from level 1-5, it gets easier once he gets his level 6 ult and benefits from having a teammate until 11 when he's got level 11 ult. There are times when people don't even see it coming, they are dead or about to die and there is a brief yet eternal moment of knowing it.

This moment is the worst moment for the victim. Ruptured do near death, can't run, no spells that can save him from the coming onslaught. bloodraged if they have spells so they are silenced. If not then the death comes swifter.

Some people are just caught running away, next thing they know blood gushes and Bloodseeker comes out of nowhere and finish the job.

If i were to ask you which is satan and which is you do you think he's bloodseeker or is it you? usually we would imagine satan being the ownage and we're the victims and yet why? why are we not the conquerors that rupture the things of his camp. There are many heroes that can own. But i like this one most. He is hard to get away from. There is trapped and helpless feeling. I enjoy when people get that around me. Perma Stun doesn't even work this well. Perma might not always work, this always will.

What in my life needs to be destroyed? how can i make satan feel helpless? i know that tomorrow when i wake up he will try to bring the battle to my doorstep. I know that tomorrow i must push the lane. When i speak boldly he acts bold~ i hope to be the bloodseeker tomorrow and beyond. i will be bathe in the blood of my victims and be revitalized.

we out to be more than creeps, we are heroes after all.