so recently God mentioned something to me and i figured i should write it down. "Hey Enoch, I'm a person not an item or resource."

So there I am trying to figure out how to better get myself out of a rut and how to make sure i'm not tired and useless and God had to remind me that he wasn't just a tool for my life. He's not here to help me life my life, he's here to dictate how i live his (by ownership) life.

I guess I do forget these things. I see the underlying issues. Let's break it down. I'm tired. Why? Because i don't sleep? No. Because i don't have rest. My soul finds rest in Christ. The underlying problem is my lack of God in my life. How does this get fixed? More God. Why would i do that though? So i can be less tired and do what i want? NO! Because I love God and it's the natural fruit of the life i claim. The underlying issue isn't not enough time spent with God but my lack of relationship building quality time with God. I forgot the deeper layer. I know that, "more God" is the answer, but it's good to be clear what the question is. Not fatigue, not functionality, but relationship.