Not today

So one of the things that I deal with on a general basis is lust or conversely, loving my wife more. One of the things I've been praying about that I'd love my wife more. Wouldn't you know, these days I find myself looking at my wife differently. I find her more beautiful. I call her honey now. Lots of reasons why that is, but it is. I find the time spent with her much more satisfying and there is a deeper sense of longing for her. I'm just putting it out there. God intends for me to be a good man and I need to ask him for that.

Conversely, as I was going home yesterday afternoon I knew I would have some time to be alone with a computer and two thoughts quickly came to mind, pretty standard thoughts I guess. The first was pornography. The moment came and I said, "Not today, satan." The second was to watch Person of Interest and delay going to meet up with my men's group who were just playing games anyway. "Not today, satan". then I was going to sleep instead of go to prayer meeting. "Not today, satan."

I don't know how long it will be until I encounter another moment where the answer will be, "that sounds like a good idea, satan", but for now i look forward to the next encounter where I say, "Not today". I intend to take it one day at a time and go from there. I have no rush. God is in charge and he is my strength.